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Meet me Backstage Book 4 in the Arrowsmith High Series By MJ Ray Dedication A strange one this, but this time I dedicate this book to myself. As someone that has suffered from anxiety at an early age it really was a personal journey for me, writing this book and if you do suffer from this affliction, I hope this book helps you. Meet Me Backstage (Arrowsmit...
Meet me Backstage Book 4 in the Arrowsmith High Series By MJ Ray Dedication A strange one this, but this time I dedicate this book to myself. As someone that has suffered from anxiety at an early age it really was a personal journey for me, writing this book and if you do suffer from this affliction, I hope this book helps you. Meet Me Backstage (Arrowsmith High #4) Published by MJ Ray May 2022 All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in retrieval systems, copies in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording or otherwise transmitted without written permission from the author/publisher, except by a reviewer who may quote brief passages for review purposes only. This book is licensed for your personal enjoyment only. This eBook may not be resold or given away to other people. If you would like to share this book with another person please purchase an additional copy for each participant. This is a work of fiction. 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Table of Contents Chapter One Chapter Two Chapter Three Chapter Four Chapter Five Chapter Six Chapter Seven Chapter Seven Chapter Eight Chapter Nine Chapter Ten Chapter Eleven Chapter Twelve Chapter Thirteen Chapter Fourteen Chapter Fifteen Chapter Sixteen Chapter Seventeen Chapter Eighteen Chapter Nineteen Chapter Twenty Chapter Twenty-One Chapter Twenty-Two Chapter Twenty-Three Chapter Twenty-Four Eplilogue Chapter One Heidi Why is my brain wired this way? My heart is thumping so hard it feels like it's in the back of my throat. Come on, Heidi, deep breath in through the nose... out through your mouth... slow exhale. Just like you’ve done a million times. You can get a handle on this. Whether or not talking to myself is healthy, it strangely helps. A panic attack because a boy spoke a few words, is bad, even for me! Oh god. Is he still talking? I glance at Ethan, the guy sitting next to me, rambling about this science project. Science is not something I care about, at all. Leaving is all I care about right now. My fingers move as though they’re on the strings of a guitar against the table; a calming technique of mine, memorising the actions and chords in my head. It starts working and my heart rate goes back to a healthy speed just as I hear Ethan say, “So, what do you think? Should we meet up?” We've been put into pairs - my worst nightmare. School is aware of my anxiety, but I didn't want any special consideration in class. That was my decision, but now, I'm kinda regretting it; now I’m paired with a boy... a good-looking one at that. He’s on the rugby team, and has thick dark unruly brown hair. Yeah, he's cute. It’s even worse when the cute ones try to talk to me. I just want to be left alone. I clear my throat. “Sure, I guess we could meet in the library at lunch one day?” My voice doesn't sound like my own, but I'm still proud I’m able to speak. He half-smirks to himself and shakes his head. “Sure, that’s fine. Next week we’ll organise a time for it.” The bell goes as I nod at him while keeping my eyes on my textbook. Eye contact is an impossibility. For me, looking at a boy is like trying to stare directly at the sun - don't do it or I’ll implode. I scramble to get my things together to get out as quickly as possible and get home. Everyone else rushes out, eager to start their weekends. Murmurs about the party go around. There is a party tonight happening at a club nearby. It’s a guy in our year, George; it's his birthday and his parents hired a room for the party. I’m sick of hearing about it, but I'm going with Harper and Sara and a few others. Crowds are fine, because I can blend in and stay hidden. It would come as a shock to half these people that I can't talk to them. They see what they want to see. Grateful that I only live ten minutes’ walk away from school, I step into the school courtyard and the sun hurts my eyes like I've been held underground all day. Rushing, I turn the corner towards the main exit and barrel into something... or someone. Crap, it's a someone. We collide, my bag dropping and the contents spilling on the floor. Seriously! I bend to pick them up as fast as I can. My serious stationery addiction is obvious looking at the contents. Most girls own makeup and perfume...but me? It’s highlighters, all types of nib pen, tape, glue, you name it with guitar picks thrown in there. The items in this bag are a window to my personality, and I’d prefer to keep it to myself. After picking up the last item, I look up to apologise and continue looking up and up. My blood runs cold. Please no. Not him, anyone but him. I’d recognise those legs anywhere. My voice stops in my throat as I go to speak. It is him. Cooper. The Cooper that I've had a secret crush on for the last two years and avoided. I usually just gaze at him from a distance. This is not a distance. He's inches away. Cooper is Ed’s twin. Ed is my friend’s boyfriend and the nicest, most easy-going guy you could meet. Cooper