No Kiss List

No Kiss List M.S. Phillips Copyright 2023 M.S. All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or used in any manner without the prior written permission of the copyright owner. This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, businesses, companies, events, or locales is entirely coincidental. ISBN 9798792598584 Independently published Acknowledgments I never thought that I would put this story out there for the world to see. It has so much of me in it that I didn’t think I would be able to take the criticism that came along with it. It took me a long time to realize this is how I move forward in life. Getting the words on the page could change someone else’s life, and that would make it all worth it. A huge thank you to my friends and family who put up with me during the long writing battles and all my absences. Thank you to my arc readers and those who took the time to help me throughout the entire process. And a massive thank you to my editor, friend, and cover creator Letty. As you’ll notice the chapter titles are the titles to songs. Music played such a huge role in the making of this book that it only felt right to use song titles as the chapters to create a playlist for you to listen to as you go. I hope you enjoy the journey. Hannah this one’s for you, gone entirely too soon. Table of Contents Prologue 1- Break the Rules 2- I Love College 3- Sexy Dirty Love 4- Blame it on the Alcohol 5- Dangerous Woman 6- Version of Me 7- Come and Go 8- Glass House 9- Vices 10- Stupid 11- Pray 12- How Could You 13- Personal Epilogue 1- Death of Me 2- Dirty Little Secret 3- Some Kind of Drug 4- Death of Peace of Mind 5- Sweet Little Lies 6- Stay Away 7- Sober 8- Perfectly Broken 9- Nobodies 10- Him and I 11- Power Over Me 12- Me Trigger Warnings: Drug Abuse Attempted Suicide Sexual Assault Prologue The numbness overtook my body within record timing, my eyes fluttered shut as my body sank into the soft fabric of the couch beneath me. I felt it dip from the pressure of someone sitting down, I felt the warmth radiate off their body as we connected at the sides. When I felt his fingertips brush over my skin, I assumed it to be Sebastian, the sensation causing my body to slip even further into the couch. It was practically swallowing me whole. I heard my name being called but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't will my eyes to open. My breaths became shallow, and my heartbeat slowed. My name rolling off Seb's lips was the last thing I remembered before the darkness took over. - - - If you think this is going to be one of those stories where everything is bright and nothing dark, then you're sadly mistaken. This is real, this is raw, this is me... 1- Break the Rules -Charli XCX Reed- "Alright now if you're gonna be staying here we gotta set some ground rules." Aj stands up from his desk where he was sitting and makes his way across the room towards me and his bed. "Fine, let's hear 'em." I cross my arms over my chest while rolling my eyes. "I'll let you have my bed and I'll take the couch, but NO hooking up in my bed!" He points his index finger at me as if that is the one thing that’s actually going to make me listen to him. I stand up from his bed and get chest to chest with him. It isn't hard considering I’m only a couple inches shorter than him. "No hooking up while I'm in the room." I take both my hands and push him on his chest causing him to stumble backwards. He quickly catches himself before placing his finger to his chin in a thinking manner. "How long are you staying again?" The laugh that erupts from his chest is enough for me to start playfully hitting him. "Seriously Aj, you can't keep it in your pants for even a few months?" I say as he blocks all of my swings at him. "A few months? Reed, we might have to rethink this!" I land a punch to his chest. "Ugh fine! One more thing though, no getting with any of my friends." My patience is wearing thin. "And I'm just supposed to know which ones are your friends?" A massive smile crosses his face, "I'll be making a list, don't you worry." "Oh yay, it's like being sixteen all over again." I make my way towards his door to just get away. He grabs my right arm from behind me and spins me around. "Hey, I'm just looking out for you." A pleading look on his face. "Yeah whatever, anything else princess?" "Yeah, don't ever call me that again." I manage to pull my arm from his grasp and walk out of his room. That my friends is my amazing brother for ya. If you're wondering how I got myself stuck at the Phi Theta house, allow me to explain. You know all those movies where girls randomly get assigned to the guy’s dorms by accident, but she still gets to stay? I’ll pause for ample time to roll your eyes with me. So, the Dean of Winchester University basically told me I was shit outta luck and to find my own place because the girl’s dorms were full. Oh coooool. I haven't had a chance to land a job here yet so I can't exactly just go get an apartment of my own. Thankfully Aj's best friend, Decker Porter, is the president of Phi Theta and