Finding My Bliss

Finding My Bliss Jay Leigh Brown Copyright © 2023 by Jay Leigh Brown All Rights Reserved This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, and incidents, other than those in the public domain are either products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, locations, or actual events is entirely coincidental. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by electronic or mechanical means, including information storage and retrieval systems, without written permission of the author, except for the use of brief quotations in a book review. Edited and Proofed by: Proofs by Polly Cover design © Opulent Designs Interior Book Design Jay Leigh Brown The Finding My Bliss play list is on Spotify. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1GsFOj7Z2uWkFttpPGFCfM?si=1e8e6b4d90954bce 1. All Through the Night by Sleeping at Last 2. Poison and Wine by The Civil Wars 3. I’m Not Enough and I’m Sorry by Tekqoi, Snøw 4. To Good At Goodbyes by Sam Smith 5. Let Me Down Slowly by Alec Benjamin 6. Paralyzed by NF 7. Always Been You by Jessie Murph 8. Turning Page by Sydney Rose 9. favorite crime by Olivia Rodrigo 10. Fade Into You by Mazzy Star 11. Heather by Conan Gray 12. She Used To Be Mine by Sara Bareilles 13. Home by Daughter 14. Neon Stars by Wild Rivers 15. City Rain by John Vincent III 16. Ends of the Earth by Lord Huron 17. Until I Found You by Steven Sanchez 18. Meant To Be by Ber, Charlie Oriain 19. What A Time (feat. Niall Horan) by Julia Micheals, Niall Horan 20. traitor by Olivia Rodrigo 21. Gravity by Sara Bareilles 22. Train Wreck by James Arthur 23. when was it over? (feat. Sam Hunt) by Shasha Alex Sloane, Sam Hunt 24. Til Forever Falls Apart by Ashe, FINNEAS 25. Bloom - Bonus Track by The Paper Kites 26. I Can Change by Lake Street Dive 27. Posession by Sarah McLachlin 28. MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT by Elley Duhé 29. Repeat Until Death by Novo Amor 30. A Little Bit Yours by JP Saxe Content Considerations This story takes place in a medical setting and some of the characters are health care practitioners. The story contains detailed descriptions of fictional medical cases, including self-soothing mechanisms, self-harm, accidental physical injury and trauma, and suicide. There is mention of abortion. The sexual content includes, but is not limited to, breath play and degradation. This story contains family dynamics that may be uncomfortable for some. Please consider your limits and triggers before diving into this story. Your mental health is important to me. If you have any questions or need more specific information, please feel free to message or email me at any of the places listed in the back matter. Dedication This book is dedicated to RN’s everywhere. To all of the MDs, DOs, RRTs, EMS, CNAs, and ER Techs. All of the PTs, OTs, SLPs, pharmacists, and phlebotomists. All of you folks who walked into a sick room, risking not only your own life, but that of your loved ones every time you went home. I know you are struggling. You've seen things no one should ever have to witness. You've suffered events that changed the core of who you are. I want you to know I appreciate you. I am you. Contents 1. Carter 2. Unity 3. Carter 4. Unity 5. Carter 6. Unity 7. Carter 8. Unity 9. Carter 10. Unity 11. Carter 12. Unity 13. Carter 14. Unity 15. Carter 16. Unity 17. Carter 18. Unity 19. Carter 20. Unity 21. Carter 22. Unity 23. Carter 24. Unity 25. Unity 26. Unity Epilogue Acknowledgments Also By Jay Leigh Brown About the Author Chapter one Carter“Help me! Somebody help me! Jesus Christ, it’s going to fall off!” The ambulance bay doors woosh open behind me. I’m instantly annoyed when a hand snags the back of my jacket as I reach for the handle to the break room door.“Are you a doctor? I can’t feel my dick. I CAN’T FEEL MY DICK, MAN! Penis down, Penis down!” The man howls as he jerks his body up on the stretcher, leaning over and fisting my jacket with one meaty paw. The air is thick with desperation as he begs me to fix his problem.He yanks my shoulder forward and I twist around, dislodging a God-knows-how filthy hand off of me. I seek the eyes of the medic while putting my foot on the bottom of the stretcher to give it a push away from me. “Registration clerk is on the other side of the hallway, Rock.” In other words, push this asshole away from me and across the hall. Dick. He’s enjoying this.The patient’s acne-ridden jowls quiver under his sweat-soaked mullet, his shoulders bare under the sheet. He digs between the belts strapped across his body, ripping the sheet over his lap off. The sight that greets me makes my groin spasm in sympathy.The seasoned medic, one of my favorites, lifts an eyebrow, his mouth twisting into a wry grin as he pushes the cart with his screaming and sweating patient forward and to the left, putting my jacket and I out of the patient’s reach. “Better punch in, doc, it’s looking like it’s going to be a normal Friday night.”“I’ll take Full Moon Fridays over work note Wednesdays any day,” I grouse sardonically while shrugging, knowing there is nothing I can do but work through the inevitable state of the next ten hours of my life.“Did you fucking hear me?” the man on the cot interrupts, looking outraged. “Look at my dick! Just look at it! I’m no doctor, but I’m pretty damn sure it ain’t ‘sposed to be this color purple!” His index finger points dramatically at his tiny, albeit angry, little grape ape. I lean over, peering at the injured organ, unable to rein in my surprise.“Is that PVC pipe?” I ask. “What diameter is that?