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Contents Title Page Copyright Notice Dedication Author’s Note Epigraph Part I: Sometimes Things Get Lost 1. Falling Between the Cracks 2. Everything Changes 3. Everything Falls Apart Part II: Where the Lost Things Go 4. Sometimes Things Misplace Themselves 5. How to Get Lost 6. After the Market Part III:...
Contents Title Page Copyright Notice Dedication Author’s Note Epigraph Part I: Sometimes Things Get Lost 1. Falling Between the Cracks 2. Everything Changes 3. Everything Falls Apart Part II: Where the Lost Things Go 4. Sometimes Things Misplace Themselves 5. How to Get Lost 6. After the Market Part III: Staying Lost 7. One’s for Sorrow, Two’s for Joy 8. What We Lose Along the Way Part IV: How to Get Found 9. Revenge of the Lost Things 10. In a Time of Mists and Moths 11. A Conversation and a Conclusion 12. Not Everything Can be Found 13. Back to School By the Same Author About the Author Newsletter Sign-up Copyright Guide Cover Title Page Dedication Author’s Note Part I: Sometimes Things Get Lost 1. Falling Between the Cracks Contents Copyright Start Content Pagebreaks of the print version Cover Page v vii ix xi 1 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 37 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 83 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 111 113 114 115 116 117 118 119 120 121 122 123 124 125 126 127 128 129 130 131 132 133 134 135 136 137 138 139 140 141 142 143 144 145 146 ii iii 2a vi Begin Reading Table of Contents About the Author Copyright Page Thank you for buying this Tom Doherty Associates ebook. To receive special offers, bonus content, and info on new releases and other great reads, sign up for our newsletters. Or visit us online at us.macmillan.com/newslettersignup For email updates on the author, click here. The author and publisher have provided this e-book to you without Digital Rights Management software (DRM) applied so that you can enjoy reading it on your personal devices. This e-book is for your personal use only. You may not print or post this e-book, or make this e-book publicly available in any way. You may not copy, reproduce, or upload this e-book, other than to read it on one of your personal devices. Copyright infringement is against the law. If you believe the copy of this e-book you are reading infringes on the author’s copyright, please notify the publisher at: us.macmillanusa.com/piracy. FOR THE CHILD I WAS. I WILL SPEND MY ENTIRE LIFETRYING TO MAKE UP FOR THEFACT THAT WHEN I WAS YOU, I DIDN’T RUN SOON ENOUGH. I’M SORRY. AUTHOR’S NOTE While all the Wayward Children books have dealt with heavy themes and childhood traumas, this one addresses an all-too-familiar monster: the one that lives in your own home. Themes of grooming and adult gaslighting are present in the early text. As a survivor of something very similar, I would not want to be surprised by these elements where I didn’t expect them. I just want to offer you this reassurance: Antsy runs. Before anything can actually happen, Antsy runs. Street penny sacrament; what are you looking for? Lost in the moment and found, I am the God of Lost Things, and I will take care of you. Foundling and fallen, not where it ought to be, Mislaid and moved around. I am the God of Lost Things, and I will take care of you. I will take care of you. —“The God of Lost Things,” Talis Kimberley PART I SOMETIMES THINGS GET LOST 1 FALLING BETWEEN THE CRACKS THE FIRST THING ANTOINETTE Ricci ever lost was her father, but she was so young when it happened that she never really felt like she could be held responsible. She was only five years old, made of wiggles and giggles and still enough smaller than her name that no one ever called her anything other than “Antsy,” not even her parents. She had never been hungry for longer than it took to tell an adult, never been hurt worse than a skinned knee or banged elbow, never truly been afraid. It was a daddy-daughter day, something Antsy still viewed as a special treat, even though she knew that it was really to give her mother a few hours of peace after a long week of raising her hyperactive child. Mommy was going to go back to work as soon as Antsy started first grade, but until then, it was just the two of them all day while Daddy was at work, and that meant Saturdays were for Daddy and Antsy, Antsy and Daddy, just the two of them out in the world. That was normal. That was right. That was the way things were supposed to be. And one minute he was there, watching indulgently from the end of the aisle as she ran wild and gleeful past ranks of Disney princesses and their jewel-toned plastic accessories, and then he wasn’t there anymore. Antsy stopped running right in the middle of the aisle, too confused to move. Her parents never left her alone when they were at Target. That was one of their first and firmest rules; she could be allowed to free-range through the toys as long as she could see them, but she couldn’t let them slip out of sight, not ever, because the world was full of people who wanted to snatch up pretty little girls and walk away with them. But her father—her tall,