The Sins We Survive

Copyright Copyright © 2023 by Danielle Renee. All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the publisher except for the use of brief quotations in a book review. This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are used fictiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales are completely coincidental. If you're reading this in e-book format from anywhere other than Amazon, it's a STOLEN, pirated copy. If you got this through legal methods, thank you for supporting artists. Badass cover created by Dez at Pretty In Ink Creations Contents Foreword Playlist Dedication 1. Emilia 2. Emilia 3. Gabriel 4. Emilia 5. Bash 6. Emilia 7. Emilia 8. Emilia 9. Gabriel 10. Emilia 11. Bash 12. Emilia 13. Gabriel 14. Emilia 15. Emilia 16. Dominic 17. Gabriel 18. Dominic 19. Emilia 20. Emilia 21. Gabriel 22. Bash 23. Gabriel 24. Emilia 25. Gabriel 26. Bash 27. Xavier 28. Emilia 29. Gabriel 30. Emilia 31. Emilia 32. Xavier 33. Emilia 34. Dominic 35. Bash 36. Dominic 37. Xavier 38. Gabriel 39. Emilia 40. Dominic 41. Emilia 42. Bash 43. Xavier 44. Gabriel 45. Emilia 46. Emilia 47. Bash 48. Gabriel 49. Xavier 50. Dominic 51. Gabriel 52. Emilia One Month Later… 53. Emilia 54. Gabriel 55. Bash 56. Emilia 57. Emilia 58. Gabriel 59. Xavier 60. Dominic 61. Emilia 62. Gabriel Emilia From the Author What to read next... Foreword This is a reverse harem/why choose romance (my very first)–meaning our girl has more than one love interest. And the guys are mad fucking obsessed with her. We’re not doing a love triangle over here. There’s no choosing. There is some MM content as one of the main characters is bisexual (not quite sword crossing…sword adjacent?). If that’s not your thing, I suggest skipping this book in the series. It also contains dark elements that could be triggering including violence, torture, stalking, fighting, attempted rape, mention of abuse of children, blackmail, kidnapping, off-page sexual assault, murder… and sex of course. This book contains group scenes. Our guys are into some kinky shit and they can’t wait to corrupt their sweet girl. This is a standalone but there are a lot of references to what was going on during The Destruction You Deserve. I feel it helps to read that first, although it isn't necessary. Timeline: This book starts around the same time as The Destruction You Deserve, so you will read some overlapping storyline. This book also contains a little spoilerish material from The Chaos You Crave. Playlist L isten on Spotify Plagued – We Came As Romans Blood // Water – grandson Fully Alive – Flyleaf Watch The World Burn – Falling In Reverse hot girl bummer – Our Last Night Loser – Sueco Walls Could Talk – Halsey You're Going Down – Sick Puppies Everything Black – Unlike Pluto, Mike Taylor I Miss The Misery – Halestorm Toxic – A Static Lullaby Bad Things – I Prevail BLOOD – Ryan Oakes Psycho – Puddle Of Mudd 2nd Sucks – A Day To Remember Lying From You – Linkin Park Love-Hate-Sex-Pain – Godsmack Dedication To the “adults” from my past who provided the ammunition for Emilia’s story… I used bits and pieces of you to create her monsters. I found the strength to write this and free myself. You’re just lucky I didn’t name the characters after you. Chapter one EmiliaAge seventeen – One Year Ago… Ares01 has submitted a requestAres again…He was quickly becoming my number one fan–not that I’ve been doing this long. Only two months. It started as an experiment to see if I could get any interest. Something silly to break up the monotony of my boring, lonely life. It turned out there were a lot of people interested in the curvy redhead that wore a black bunny mask and played with herself.Honey_xo has viewed the requestA knife this time? Well that’s…different.His requests were growing more brazen. But hey, whatever makes his dick hard I guess.Honey_xo has accepted the requestI was already wearing a black lace corset and matching thong. I found the only pair of stilettos I own and wiggled them onto my feet. I didn’t like wearing them, but what Ares requests, Ares gets.And for five hundred dollars, I’d wear the fucking heels.I opened my nightstand and pulled out the knife I kept hidden below my journal. I bought it because Ares told me he wanted me to have one for something he had planned. I’d been doing this with him for a few weeks and I wasn’t about to question him.He didn’t like it when I asked questions.I removed the knife from its leather sheath. I tested the edge of the blade against my fingertip and smiled. If he wanted a show, I’d give him one.It wasn’t like he knew who I was. I used a screen name and wore a mask that covered half my face. I barely spoke, not even wanting to expose my voice–just in case.I turned my camera on, making sure it was positioned properly on the tripod facing my bed. I got on my knees in front of it, biting my lip as I looked directly into the lens.Dragging the blade of the knife up my thigh, I passed my belly and breasts and stopped at my neck. I pulled the knife away and inspected it, and then licked the flat side with the tip of my tongue. After teasing my body with the knife for a few minutes, I laid back on the bed so my head rested on a pillow. With my knees pulled up, I moved the butt of the knife across my thighs, ready to get to Ares’ request.My breath hitched when it grazed my clit.I was turned on from the knife skimming my body, which was a bit shocking considering I was an inexperienced virgin. Definitely wasn’t