The Paris Daughter

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She usually loved the summer, wanted it to last forever, but this year was different, for in just four months the baby would be here, and everything would change. It had to, didn’t it? She cradled her belly as she slipped into the embrace of the shady Bois de Boulogne.Overhead, chestnuts, oaks, and cedars arched into a canopy, gradually blotting out the sun as she took first one winding trail and then another, moving deeper into the park. The same sky stretched over all of Paris, but here, beneath it, Elise was simply herself, not a woman defined by her neighborhood, her station, her husband.When she married Olivier four years earlier, she hadn’t realized that the longer she stood by his side, the more invisible she would become. They’d met in New York in early 1935, and she had been awed by his raw talent—he did things with brushstrokes that most artists only dreamed of. He’d been twenty-nine to her twenty-three, and it was the year he’d first been splashed across the magazines. Art Digest had called him “the next great artist hailing from Europe”; Collier’s described him as having “the brush of Picasso with the looks of Clark Gable”; and even the New York Times had declared him “a Monet for a new day,” which wasn’t quite right because his style didn’t resemble the French master’s, but the point was clear. He was the toast of the art world, and when he turned his gaze on Elise, she couldn’t look away.She was an artist, too, or rather, she wanted to be. She loved to sketch, she loved to paint, but her real medium was sculpture. Her parents had died when she was nineteen, leaving her lost and adrift, and Olivier had offered her a raft to a different life. He had been the first one, in fact, to introduce her to wood as an alternative to clay. With a mallet and a chisel she could work out her grief, he’d told her, and he’d been right. When he proposed to her two months later, her reaction had been one of gratitude and disbelief—Olivier LeClair wanted to marry her?Only in the years since had she realized marriage was supposed to be a partnership, not a practice in idolatry, and as she gradually got to know the Olivier the world didn’t—the one who snored in his sleep, who drank too much whiskey, who slashed canvases in a rage when the images in his head didn’t match the ones he’d painted—he had begun to slip off his pedestal. But in time, she had come to love him for the darkness as much as for the light that sometimes spilled out from him, eclipsing everything else in his orbit.The problem was that Olivier didn’t seem to want a partner. She’d thought he’d seen in her a raw talent, an artistic eye. But now, with the clarity of hindsight, it seemed that he’d only wanted a qualified acolyte. And so life in their apartment had grown tenser, his criticisms of her carvings more frequent, his frowns at her work more obvious. Even now, with his baby growing in her belly, changing the shape of her from the inside out, she felt corseted by her marriage to him, choked by the lack of oxygen left over for her in their large sixth-floor apartment in Paris’s tony seizième arrondissement.It was why she had to come, as she often did, to the sprawling park that spilled over into Paris’s western suburbs. Here, where no one knew her as the wife of Olivier LeClair, she could feel the corset strings gradually loosening. She could feel her fingertips twitching, ready to carve again. Only once she walked through their apartment door would the tingling stop, the creative spirit in her retreating.But the baby. The baby would change everything. The pregnancy hadn’t been intended, but Olivier had embraced the news with a fervor Elise hadn’t expected. “Oh, Elise, he will be perfect,” he had said when she delivered the news, his eyes shining with tears. “The best parts of you and me. Someone to carry on our legacy.”She sat heavily on a bench beside one of the walking paths. Her joints ached more than usual today; the baby had shifted and was sitting low, pressing into her pelvic bone. She bent to pull her sketch pad and a Conté crayon from her handbag, and as she straightened back up, she felt a sharp stab of pain in her right side, below her rib cage, but just as quickly, it was gone. She took a deep breath and began to sketch the robin on a branch above her, busy building its nest as it paid her no mind.Her sketches always looked a bit mad, even to her, for she wasn’t trying to commit precise images to paper, not exactly. Instead, the sketches were to capture the complexities of angles, of curves, of movement, so that she could find those same shapes in the wood later. As she quickly roughed out