Lost Places


 
 
 
 
 lost places
 STORIES
 
 Sarah
 Pinsker
 
 Small Beer Press
 Easthampton, MA
 This is a work of fiction. All characters and events portrayed in this book are either
 fictitious or used fictitiously.
 Lost Places: Stories copyright © 2023 by Sarah Pinsker. All rights reserved. Page 273 of the print edition is an extension of the copyright page.
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 Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
 Names: Pinsker, Sarah, author.
 Title: Lost places : stories / Sarah Pinsker.
 Description: First edition. | Easthampton, MA : Small Beer Press, [2023] | 
 Summary: “A half-remembered children’s TV show. A hotel that shouldn’t 
 exist. A mysterious ballad. A living flag. A group of girls goes 
 camping. Nebula and Hugo Award-winning author Sarah Pinsker’s second 
 collection brings together her touchstones of music and memory, secret 
 subversions and hidden messages”-- Provided by publisher.
 Identifiers: LCCN 2022054098 (print) | LCCN 2022054099 (ebook) | ISBN 
 9781618731999 (paperback) | ISBN 9781618732002 (ebook)
 Classification: LCC PS3616.I579 L67 2023 (print) | LCC PS3616.I579
 (ebook) | DDC 813/.6--dc23 
 LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2022054098
 LC ebook record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2022054099
 Print edition set in Centaur 12 pt and printed on 30% PCR recycled paper by the Versa Press in East Peoria, IL.
 Cover illustration: Thomas Baldwin, Airopaidia (1786).
 
 For the booksellers, the librarians, and the teachers,
 in tough times and otherwise
 
 Two Truths and a Lie
 
 In his last years, Marco’s older brother Denny had become one of those people whose possessions swallowed them entirely. The kind they made documentaries about, the kind people staged interventions for, the kind people made excuses not to visit, and who stopped going out, and who were spoken of in sighs and silences. Those were the things Stella thought about after Denny died, and those were the reasons why, after eyeing the four other people at the funeral, she offered to help Marco clean out the house.
 “Are you sure?” Marco asked. “You barely even knew him. It’s been thirty years since you saw him last.”
 Marco’s husband, Justin, elbowed Marco in the ribs. “Take her up on it. I’ve got to get home tomorrow and you could use help.”
 “I don’t mind. Denny was nice to me,” Stella said, and then added, “But I’d be doing it to help you.”
 The first part was a lie, the second part true. Denny had been the weird older brother who was always there when their friends hung out at Marco’s back in high school, always lurking with a notebook and a furtive expression. She remembered Marco going out of his way to try to include Denny, Marco’s admiration wrapped in disappointment, his slow slide into embarrassment.
 She and Marco had been good friends then, but she hadn’t kept up with anyone from high school. She had no excuse; social media could reconnect just about anyone at any time. She wasn’t sure what it said about her or them that nobody had tried to communicate.
 On the first night of her visit with her parents, her mother had said, “Your friend Marco’s brother died this week,” and Stella had suddenly been overwhelmed with remorse for having let that particular friendship lapse. Even more so when she read the obituary her mother had clipped, and she realized Marco’s parents had died a few years before. That was why she went to the funeral and that was why she volunteered.
 “I’d like to help,” she said.
 Two days later, she arrived at the house wearing clothes from a bag her mother had never gotten around to donating: jeans decades out of style and dappled with paint, treadworn gym shoes, and a baggy, age-stretched T-shirt from the Tim Burton Batman. She wasn’t self-conscious about the clothes—they made sense for deep cleaning—but there was something surreal about the combination of these particular clothes and this particular door.
 “I can’t believe you still have that T-shirt,” Marco said when he stepped out onto the stoop. “Mine disintegrated. Do you remember we all skipped school to go to the first showing?”
 “Yeah. I didn’t even know my mom still had it. I thought she’d thrown it out years ago.”
 “Cool—and thanks for doing this. I told myself I wouldn’t ask anybody, but if someone offered I’d take them up on it. Promise me you won’t think less of me for the way this looks? Our parents gave him the house. I tried to help him when I visited, but he didn’t really let me, and he made it clear if I pushed too hard I wouldn’t be welcome anymore.”
 Stella nodded. “I promise.”
 He handed her a pair of latex gloves and a paper mask to cover her mouth and nose; she considered for the first time how bad it might be. She hadn’t even really registered that he had squeezed through a cracked door and greeted her outside. The lawn was manicured, the flower beds mulched and weeded and ready for the spring that promised to erupt at any moment, if winter ever agreed to depart. The shutters sported fresh white paint.
 Which was why she was surprised when Marco cracked the door again to enter, leaving only enough room for her to squeeze through as she followed. Something was piled behind the door. Also beside the door, in front of the door, and in every available space in the entranceway. A narrow path led forward to the kitchen, another into the living room, another upstairs.
 “Oh,” she said.
 He glanced back at her. “It’s not too late to back out. You didn’t know what you were signing up for.”
 “I didn’t,” she admitted. “But it’s okay. Do you have a game plan?”
 “Dining room, living room, rec room, bedrooms, in that order. I have no clue how long any room will take, so whatever we get done is fine. Most of