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It is possibly the oldest, easily the most profitable, surely the most vicious. It is the only one international in scope. It is the only one in which the profits are reckoned in dollars and the losses in lives. —Major General Smedley D. Butler ONE Arman Bajalan woke in darkness, as was his habit. He turned toward the clock on his nightstand: 4:37 in digital red. Another eight minutes to sleep. Outside his window, a songbird warbled in the yellow glow of an alley streetlight. He swung his legs over the side of his single bed and rubbed his eyes awake instead of going back to sleep. A jet passing overhead from the naval air station washed the morning twilight in the noise of its engines. Arman looked up toward his ceiling’s popcorn surface as if to track the jet in its low flight over the city. He stood beneath another streetlight a few minutes later, waiting for the number 3 bus to take him to work at the motel on Ocean View. He wore his custodial uniform, gray work pants and a matching top with a patch on the pocket where his name had been embroidered in white thread, cursive script. After reading his résumé and offering him the job, Mr. Peters, the motel owner, had added Dr. to the name patch. His coworkers called him Professor the first few months he worked at the motel, but that had died down once it was clear Arman would not be moved in one direction or the other by the ribbing. A heavy set of keys hung from a carabiner on his belt, and he shouldered a nylon gym bag with a towel and a pair of swimming trunks inside. His usual bus never came. Arman waited in the emptiness of the city street and the last cool air of night receding from it. He checked his watch two times before another bus arrived at 5:14 and knelt toward the curb with a pneumatic hiss. Arman and the bus driver told each other good morning. “The last bus never came,” said Arman. “Engine trouble. Sorry about that,” the driver said. “Had to switch buses and the schedule got mixed up.” The bus rose and rumbled off, and he put a pair of earbuds in and scrolled through his iPod until he found a Commodores song and pressed Play. The bus driver glanced at him in the mirror often enough that he pretended not to be when Arman caught him. Arman used to smile when he saw suspicious eyes looking back at him in the rearview, but he had given up on that some time ago. Still, he sometimes wondered who they saw when they looked at him. Once, not long after he’d arrived in America, he’d looked into the bathroom mirror in his apartment and tried to imagine that his gray-green eyes belonged to a stranger, but it didn’t work. He could not escape himself. And he knew that people mostly saw what they wanted to see anyway. He put “Sail On” on repeat until the driver let him off at Granby and Duffys across from Doug’s Hot Dogs just before 5:45 a.m., almost half an hour later than usual. He walked through Ocean View Beach Park with his hands in his pockets and headed toward the bathroom to change into his swimsuit. Beyond the beach grass, the rising sun carved a red sliver across the horizon. The sky above was not yet light. Black becoming blue. Stars already absorbed by nautical twilight. Arman reached the public restroom and grabbed the door handle, but movement over his shoulder caught his attention. Two men approached from the beach, carrying themselves with a casual menace. Arman looked down and saw his hand tightened into a fist around the door handle, his knuckles whitened by the reflexive effort. They were near enough when they passed that he