Counting Losses

COUNTING LOSSES BY E.L BETH CHAPTER 1 Sapphire was going out of her head with boredom. She just wanted out… Seeing Blade be all into Sally was really beginning to affect her. She hated Blade Carson with every fibre of her body, but she needed him. She had nobody left… Only Blade. No matter what he did to her, no matter how bad he treated her, she found that she needed him so much. More than he was willing to give her that was for sure. Blade refused to give into her sexually, she did everything in her power to get him to give it up and just give her that… Not Blade fucking Carson. No, he was apparently trying to fix his fuck up with her. Fix it by not touching her that is… Like it was the only thing she needed from him and the only thing she wasn’t getting. She didn’t get him, Sapphire truly didn’t understand why he was holding back. Like he did everything to deny her. He knew how badly she needed him to touch her, even though she hated herself afterwards, didn’t mean she didn’t need it. She needed his touch. The worst was throughout the nights. She would have a nightmare and only he was able to calm her down. She fell asleep easily when he was in the bed beside her. Now Sapphire didn’t have nightmares all the time, but when she did they were bad… She really did need him. And of course when he had some random slut in his bed, she would have a so called nightmare just to get him to leave that slut and come into the room to be with her. She was playing him and happily admitted it. The thing was, the prick didn’t have the heart to fuck her up like he once had. Sapphire was not going to stop until she was all that fucker could think about. It was funny how hard he tried not to let her affect him. She knew he was affected. She would deliberately walk around in something so sexy… Wanting him to snap and give in to temptation. She loved fucking his head up. He would order her into the room to change. Bossy jerk. She played her game and drove him crazy. If he had his friends over she would be a pest just to irritate him. Hunter was always great to fuck with. Even David was good to be irritated but his wife Sarah would put him in his place. Only Levi really did scare her. Something really eerie and fucked up about him. Not that she didn’t give him a hard time too, she just knew to back it up at times. For the most of it, Sapphire was really well behaved, until she wasn’t… And right now, right now her jealousy was at an all time high. The fact that Blade was still fucking that Sally scrubber was really grating on her last nerve. She left the isolation of her room and headed downstairs to cause some sort of destruction. She found Joseph there. “Hey.” She said wanting him to talk to her. He was always good to get a reaction out of Blade. It was more that Levi didn’t like him than anything else. “Hey.” He smiled at her. One good looking fellow. “Whatyadoing?” “My job.” He gave her a what you doing look. “Your job… How boring… What is your job anyway?” “Shut up Sapphire. Get lost before you get me into trouble.” “Oh boo hoo…” She rolled her eyes at the wimp. “Have you seen your fucker of a boss then?” “He’s right here.” And that was Blade. He was behind her. She bit her lip and turned to face the dickhead. He smacked the back of her head before he walked into the living room. Sapphire huffed and puffed and followed him. He gave her a what look. “I’m bored.” “Okay.” Boy he was dreamy. His beard a little too long but by god he was one good looking man. So hot it was a shame actually. “Do something. Take me out.” “No. You’re a pain in my ass every time I take you out.” Which wasn’t a lie. “Fine, I’ll go out alone…” She said smiling. The fact that he had nothing to force her to remain under lock and key any longer was something. He didn’t really have a playing hand. “No.” What? “I’m going out.” Blade rubbed a hand over his beard as he eyed her out. Yep, he was so hot, if only he would touch her… Just touch her… “Enough Sapphy. Not in the mood.” “What? Didn’t Sally suck you off right?” She asked giving him a sad face. “You would be wise to stop with the taunts.” “Why?” “Because I don’t want to mar your pretty face.” Dickhead always made her beat dramatically. She was well aware of what he was capable of. But he was no longer attacking her like he once had. He held back a lot. He didn’t hurt her any longer and she was forever pushing him to fuck up and lose control. “So what? I’m to stay here and do fuck all?” She was over this. “Or you can come into the hotel with me. Spend the day there.” “Right, so either way I’m fucked right?” “What the fuck is it that you want to start so early in the morning? Ha? Like do you wake up and think of ways to fuck my day up?” Pretty much yes… “As if I would care enough to want to fuck your day up. You nothing my good man… Mean fuck all to me.” He squinted his eyes at her. “Come here.” Oh… She frowned not understanding him. “Come here Sapphire.” She bit her lip before she moved over to him. He opened his legs so she could stand in between them. Sapphire felt nervous suddenly. He held her